I’m trying to keep myself separate online. This blog is for photography, the Blogger blog is secret and it is for whatever I feel like venting about. I have two Tumblrs, one for random poop, the other for photos. This blog is not going to turn into a illness blog, nor is this a cry for pity, it’s just something which has been playing on my mind a lot recently.

I’ve had bad knees for a long time. Exercise makes them work, ironically I’ve been lazy for a lot of my life and when I finally decided to become active my own body worked against me. 
I’ve been to the doctors before. Bad knees, don’t do anything high impact, do pilates. If walking makes it better then walk.
This worked fine for years.

Recently though I’ve been having a lot of problems. I can’t sit cross legged. I can’t kneel on my knees. I can’t stand up for too long. Walking made it worse. I can’t sit without my legs being slightly stretched out.
I put it off for months but finally I went back to the doctors. Honestly I was expecting a “we’ll refer you back to physio but you’ll be fine in a couple of months when they give you some new exercise”. I wasn’t expecting to be told I was hypermobile.

Naturally I came home and Googled it. There is a test, if you score 4 or more than you are hypermobile. I scored 5 (and a bit, my arms aren’t as bad as the picture but they still bend the wrong way a bit).

If you are hypermobile and experience pain in your joints then you are suffering from Joint Hypermobiity Syndrome. There is no cure for it, you can only manage it with pain killers and physio.

It does explain why I’m always tired and anxious.

Truth be told I’m bummed out by it. I don’t want to be unfixably poorly : ( I want to be fit and healthy.